Ready to go

So, I think I've been in KY for long enough. I'm so ready to go home. Too many people, crowded elevators, personal standards... bla bla bla. I dont have the clothes required to do this type of thing. If I ever get some money, I can go shopping for it. But right now, I can barely pay my phone bill. Funny how that works.

So, I'm really dizzy and falling asleep. A few more days left in KY and I guess we're going to Tennessee... then back to Cali. Cant wait.

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So, its my birthday. Of course Facebook told everyone, so my page is filled with 'happy birthdays'. Thats the only reason people knew. No one remembers my birthday anymore. And being single sucks. But, its whatever. So, my birthday will be spent being somewhere I didn't really wanna be. Is the hotel nice? Uh.. yes. But I don't wanna argue with people about how we should be treated or how it works. Just let us tell YOU what WE want... Tell is how much of what we're saying is already available but not advertised.. and lets move on. Seriously. Younger veterans...pretty much all of us have PTSD and/or TBI. We don't have the patience to sit there. Not to mention the fact that sitting in briefings is actually painful for some of us. It's more like punishment. Its like "thanks for volunteering to come to KY. Now sit here and don't move. I'll give you cookies later."

I heard a rumor about going to TGI Fridays for dinner? Meeting people? Who knows. I think i'd just like someone to remember my birthday w/o Facebook telling them. Or at least pretending they knew lol. I have a days full of stuff I don't wanna do. I can't advertise what i do like other people can. I'm not like that. I think i've more than proven that. So, why ppl expect me to just walk up to random ppl and talk is beyond me. Thats hard for me. I'm not that kind of person. And I don't drink anymore, so that wont help. I just don't wanna do this stuff. I really don't. I just wanna sleep. I wanna be pain free for a day. The VA won't do shit for me. So, yea. I just feel miserable and would rather disappear.

No one reason these stupid things anyways, so i'm not even sure why i'm sittin here.

Busy Busy Busy

So, I've been really busy lately. Which is quelled my PTSD for now. It's been sneaking back bit by bit tho. Slowly making its return back into my life more and more each day. I've been trying to stop that from happening, but every vet knows that it never goes away. We just have to learn how to deal with it.

I'm currently in Louisville, KY for the National AMVETS Convention and 21st Century Veterans Symposium. I gotta say that the hotel is awesome and so is the room I got. Its definitely the nicest hotel room I've EVER been in. So, although the drive here was both good and bad, (Took almost 400 pictures on the way here.) it was definitely worth just for the room alone.