Overwhelming

The confusion in my life is overwhelming. I have no idea whats going on. I go from everything bein ok, to feeling unwanted. Its too much for me to bare. I hate not knowing whats going on in my own life. My life is a circus.

I wish I knew how to handle this, I just don't. It'd be different if I could read minds. Instead I'm stuck here, wondering what my future will hold. And how fast the foundation I have will be blown apart. I'm always the last to know, but I'm used to that. I've lived most of my life out of a bag. I was just hoping I wouldn't have to do that anymore.