Impending Doom

I received nates decision like a slap in the face. Shocked. Confused. Yet still, story of my life. It never fails, that no matter what, this is the end to everything. Me. Alone. As always. No kids. This is definitely it for me. No more marriages. No attempts at kids. Just me. Alone. Why not? Its how it'll end anyways. This will make 2. And both will end up married again with kids. One already did. Me? I'll be alone. Its not just me being pissed off, or depressed, or exaggerating. This is the way my life has always been. 1 good thing throws off everything and then a mudslide of chaos ensues. I thought i was safe. Then reality it. I'm not safe anywhere. Now i get to test the VA Psychiatrist waters, that I already know are tainted. Especially in PA.

So, its been fun, ok interesting. Have fun and just be glad your life isn't as FUCKED as mine will always be.